I cannot and will not speak of other peoples Knowledge or Light. I can speak of myself. All I can seem to muster is the awe at the defiling, un-holy and profane things I used to believe in. I called it light and worship to "god". Praise be to HIM who opened my eyes and heart. HE showed me my nakedness and truel sinfulness. HE brought me out of my self imposed cesspool. I will to not do any other thing but to serve HIM. Any other choice is to go back to that vomit.
You (TEOM) are so right on.....I was depressed for a long time because of what I saw of myself, but now I am pulling out of it. When I was reading the Torah it actually felt like new neural circuits were being created in my brain. I experienced real healing in the brain and that is when my depression lifted. I have gained a lot. My guitar playing has improved and my study of music theory, so much so I am intending (Yah willing) to get a piano and work on that. I am truly blessed. When I found this site I knew there would be others. Nice to meet you. I haven't felt this love for life since I was a teenager.